The Meaning Of Mariah Carey by Mariah Carey

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It took me a lifetime to have the courage and the clarity to write my memoir. I want to tell the story of the moments – the ups and downs, the triumphs and traumas, the debacles and the dreams, that contributed to the person I am today. Though there have been countless stories about me throughout my career and very public personal life, it’s been impossible to communicate the complexities and depths of my experience in any single magazine article or a ten-minute television interview. And even then, my words were filtered through someone else’s lens, largely satisfying someone else’s assignment to define me.

This book is composed of my memories, my mishaps, my struggles, my survival and my songs. Unfiltered. I went deep into my childhood and gave the scared little girl inside of me a big voice. I let the abandoned and ambitious adolescent have her say, and the betrayed and triumphant woman I became tell her side.

Writing this memoir was incredibly hard, humbling and healing. My sincere hope is that you are moved to a new understanding, not only about me, but also about the resilience of the human spirit.




Every once in a while I break out of the fictional bubble to dabble in some non-fic. Well… usually autobiographies and memoirs by public figures who interest me.

And this time around, it’s Mariah Carey, “dahling”! 🙌


I’ve been a fan of Mariah’s for years. With Christmas around the corner and with her Christmas album on repeat the past week, I picked her book up on a whim. If you’ve been following her career and her life that’s been somewhat shared to the public over the years then you won’t be surprised by the stories she shares in this book (it’s just more detailed than what the media has shared or even portrayed).

I was interested in knowing more about her family, her upbringing, and her first marriage to the music mogul; Tommy Mottola — all of which she does talk about.

She doesn’t sugarcoat her feelings and opinions on these people from her past. It’s obvious when it comes to her family, it’s complicated but she seems to have found acceptance and peace to a point where she’s managed to keep some resemblance of a relationship when it was almost non-existent in the past.

Not going to lie, this was a wordy read. I certainly couldn’t read it in one sitting. I’m a fan of Mariah’s music but reading about her life and her POV on events is best done in doses. 😅 If you’re a fan, you’ll surely like learning more about her personal life and her journey in the music industry.

An interesting insight to both her private and public life. You learn more about her difficult childhood and adolescences knowing that she hardly discussed about her mother or father openly in interviews.

There’s also the attention surrounding her failed marriages. Growing up I remember the controversary surrounding Mariah’s marriage to Tommy and here we get to see her side of things about her life with him in detail. There were already accusations that he was controlling not only with her music but her overall public image. You realize from Mariah’s perspective what their relationship was like behind closed doors.

“Happiness was secondary. Happiness was a fleeting bonus.”


Then there’s her second marriage to Nick Cannon and the reason behind their breakdown. But also about their children, the struggles, the life altering moments, and the balance she’s found since having them.

The addition of candid photos with friends and family is a nice touch to the paperback edition. Seeing these photos of her looking just as mundane as the rest of us makes her more relatable, like all the glitz and glamour can be set aside when she’s just chilling with her friends and family.

With each song she’s written over the years, it’s been inspired by a moment or event in her life that’s impacted her in a significant way, whether good or bad. She didn’t have the fairy tale upbringing — it was far from it, and there’s no doubt she’s had some struggles and breakdowns in her adulthood that I’m not entirely sure she’s completely gotten over or healed from but she has found her people to lean on.

I don’t think this book made me see her in a different light or in a new perspective per se. Mariah is Mariah and this book is her. She takes you on a journey about her music, songs she written and released, her tours, her achievements and accolades over the years, as well as the people who she’s had the pleasure of meeting and working with, and so forth.

I’ve read a few mixed reviews on this book and I may be biased here because I am a fan but I was not surprised by what she did or did not include in her memoir. Would I have wanted her to elaborate on certain topics she’s touched on? Mm yeah, sure. But lookey here, I came away with more than I knew about her life before I read her book, so it’s all good!

She’s a queen. She’s a diva. But who’s to say that that’s necessarily a bad thing, right? Mariah has been in the biz for decades! Yes, she pens her achievements in this book in detail but hey, why not?! I, for one am not surprised that she included them. It is Mariah Carey, the woman has made some amazing accomplishments in her lifetime… and this is her memoir. 🦋


Great holiday read for fans of Mariah and those who enjoy reading autobiographies. I recommend you read it whilst listening to her songs, makes it extra festive!

RATING: ♥♥♥¾


Hope you’re all enjoying your day, week, month so far! 😊 Happy reading and as always, catch you in my next one! Xo


The Octopus Curse by Salma Farook



Science would have us believe that we are nothing but cell upon cell. I disagree. We are made up of stories. The stories we hear from our mothers, the ones we tell our daughters. The tales we share with sisters and friends. The ones we never say out loud, but are heavy on our minds and run like a fever in our blood.

There are a multitude of great divides between us; race, religion, cultures, the way we dress, the languages we speak, but the stories we tell bridge us together in the universal tongue of smiles, tears, pain and laughter. They remind us that, as women, we’re all chasing similar fairytales.

This book is a call to celebrate the bridges, delight in our stories and to focus on the joy in our lives right now, rather than racing behind the happily-ever-after. That will come in it’s own time.



A collection of poems about love, life, death. About staying positive and being strong. I love the simplicity of these poems and it’s not hard to understand the meanings and lessons behind them. The illustrations/ artwork included throughout the book were a surprising, yet an amazing bonus (and some of my faves pages to look at!)

Poems always have a way of making me contemplate about life. As a person who constantly suffers from depressive states where all I want to do is sleep the days away.. quotes, passages from a book, or certain poems have occasionally snapped me out of my dark funk. Words are powerful. I find they can be reminders, be advice, or can even give solace when I’m feeling isolated. And when I find a piece that I resonate with, they tend to stay with me.

Here are a few that I found from The Octopus Curse.

Funny things, words.

Pour them out in anger,

And they’re molten steel.

Blow them out a little,

And they’re the sharpest arrows,

Aimed to kill.

— ‘Shoot’


I’ve got a soft corner for him,

She says,

I laugh and tell her

You’re nothing but soft corners

In fact, you give all the soft

To the world,

Leaving all the corners

For yourself.

Be kinder, I insist.

To you, for you.

— ‘Kinder’


Most trees die when they’re submerged,

But with year after year of floods,

These trees have learnt to live

In the water.

Isn’t this proof?

That you can breathe

Even when you’re drowning?

That you can grow

Even if the rain comes,

Again and again?

And against all odds,

Every adversity and obstacle,

You can survive.

— ‘The Flooded Forest, Cambodia’


Although I didn’t connect with every single poem in this book, I could still appreciate the thought and meaning behind each one. There’s a diverse range in this collection for any poetry fan. I don’t often read a lot of poems, except for the occasional few included in some books I’ve read. But as I mentioned earlier, I did come away with a few faves — ‘Kinder’, ‘The Flooded Forest’, ‘Shoot’ and ‘Words’ to name a few.

Overall a beautiful, thought provoking collection. Read it all in one sitting.

RATING: ♥♥♥♥/5

Thank you for the book, Salma. Congratulations on the release! 😀


The Octopus Curse is available on ebook at Amazon. Hardcover edition available November 1st, 2019 (TODAY!!)


I hope you guys liked the review! I know it’s a little different from my usual fantasy fiction or contemporary romance book reviews. But if you like poetry, then I hope this review has assisted you in discovering new poems to read, and given you a bit of a snippet into what you can look forward to from this collection.

As always, happy reading! Catch you in my next one! Xo